Formation of the Heart

"Suffering that is not transformed will be transmitted." - Sister Miriam James Heidland

When I go running, I have certain days in which I feel so freeing. So light and "in the zone." Then there comes those days, where it just feels that for every stride taken, more weight is added on.  It is like running on muddy grounds.

These days feel like those muddy runs and it can get frustrating. I WANT THAT MUD OUT. Main reason being that it can lead to despondency. In the spirits of being real to oneself, how does one handle such turfs? First instincts are to find distractions, yet, it is one of those that once you know what you are doing....you can't extract reality out.

 

"Many of us spend our whole lives running from feeling with the mistaken belief that you cannot bear the pain. But you have already borne the pain. What you have not done is feel all you are beyond the pain." St. Bartholomew

Unstranslatable words

There is something deeply beautiful in Spanish words that cannot be translated fully. 

Dedicada a mami:

"Confieso que me haces tanta falta

Para decirme todo va a estar bien

Para escucharme con una guitarra

Sentado con tu taza de café

Lloré por que tu voz no está en la casa

Reí por que me amaste con todo tu ser

Es una mezcla que me agarra el alma

Y rompe en cada esquina de mi ser

Y como no

Si eras mi todo

Y como no"

Kany Garcia - Confieso

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Song

Preserving Authenticity

There is an impulsive desire to maintain reserve when one is in turbulence. Isn't it silly?  When I realize that most of my time and effort is set to this world alone. Key words: this world alone. How much time is wasted? To imagine this life as merely a blink to eternity. Why is so much energy placed on much that would not matter? Why does one's own heart seek the things it already knows it will not be fulfilled by?

Seems like at times, reason and heart are placed to an equation of sorts. "If I do this then factor in that plus this and that, multiplied to the coefficient of impulse divide all by risk plus fear factors would it be greater than or equal to worth it?" Keep in mind, this equation does not make sense, just made up.

Reminds me of this scene What do you want?
Is the vision to what is really important in life also blinded by our sin?

A priest once advised that one of the best methods to discern decisions was to look at it in the perspective of life and death. If you were in your deathbed, what would you do? A way to finding clarity. Makes one wonder how much of decision making is led by fear cloaked as something noble.

Sincerely,

Ahhh-me

You are worth pursuing

Snapshot from Made in His Image (Facebook)

Faith > Success

"What you cannot accomplish, is not the will of God."

-St. Arnold Janssen